Releasing Self Loathing


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A client messaged me about her foster dog. It almost bit the vet. She had already had a different foster dog that bit others so she was frustrated. The thought crossed her mind for an instant about putting him down. This horrified her. She was inquiring if a session would help the situation. Was she attracting defensive dogs?

I had a sense of what the issue was. I asked her if she had had any plastic surgery. She said yes. She had implants. The two issues were related and so I agreed to do a session with her. When someone has elective surgery, the body sometimes feels defensive. Here it is doing everything to be the best body it can, yet it is not good enough. The defensive dog was a reflection of her issues with herself. The connections may seem subtle at first but the clues were there.

In the session, there were deep issues about self loathing. It was really surprising because this woman is so intelligent and accomplished and aware. I asked her about the elective surgery. She said she had implants but wanted them removed. They looked good, they weren’t uncomfortable but they made her uneasy. It was not the implants that made her uneasy but the emotional issues that were stored at the site of the implants that was causing the discomfort.

We started to work on the issues of self loathing and then all of the sudden she felt Jewish to me. It was very funny because she was not Jewish in the present life and energetically she didn’t feel like Jewish energy. The scenario opened up of why she had to excel. Her past life in a Nazi death camp opened up to me. The woman had to slip out of their dresses and go be seen by a doctor to see if they were healthy enough to live. The sick ones were put to death. In that life, she actually had to prove herself worthy to survive. It was what drove her to excel in this lifetime and caused her to be super self critical.

She was the one who recognized that the past life in a death camp was why she was compelled to rescue dogs. She was, on some level, trying to save herself. When the dog was being seen by the vet, it triggered the trauma of her having to be scrutinized by the doctor as to whether she should live or die. The defensiveness she seen in the dogs, was a reflection of her own issues that were too unbearable to access.

As we released some of the issues, we both felt the energy around her upper side ribs relax. It also came to my attention that the surgeon himself has a certain responsibility not to put his issues into his patients. It is similar to how a cook needs to prepare food with love. She was carrying a bit of the surgeon’s issues in her breast area. We released that as well.

The dogs were such a gift. They were, in a way, helping her look at what was too unbearable to see. They difficulty they were giving her was actually a gift.

Here are the taps that we went through during her session.

(say each statement 3 times while tapping on your head and say it a 4th time while tapping on your chest)

“I release hating myself; in all moments”

“I release hating those who love me; in all moments”

“I release finding fault with those who love me; in all moments”

“I release treating myself as the enemy; in all moments”

“I release being my own enemy; in all moments”

“I release defiling myself; in all moments”

“I release attacking myself; in all moments”

“I release hiring someone to attack me; in all moments”

“I release rejecting my body, in all moments”

“I release hating my implants in all moments”

“I release storing self-loathing in my body; in all moments”

“I release rejecting a part of myself; in all moments”

“I release hating my own beauty; in all moments”

“I release criticizing myself; in all moments”

“I release using self-criticism to show superiority; in all lifetimes’

“I recant all vows and agreements between myself and self-loathing in all moments”

“I remove all curses I have put on myself; in all moments”

“I dissolve all karmic ties between myself and self-loathing; in all moments”

“I remove all the pain, burden, limitations and engrams that self-loathing has put on me; in all moments”

“I take back all the Joy, Love, Abundance, Freedom, Health, Success, Security, Companionship, Peace, Life, Wholeness, Beauty, Enthusiasm, and contentment that self-loathing has taken from me; in all moments”

“I transcend self-loathing; in all Moments”

“I shift my paradigm from self-loathing to unconditional self-love; in all moments”

“I am centered and empowered in Divine Self Love; in all moments”

Where to Find God


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Man has depleted the earth by sending his energy up into an empty sky to feed the ego of a man-made concept of Source. We pour that energy back into Source through honoring nature and each other. Because we are the face of God.

Every little pair of eyes we look into, every set of legs that roam the earth and every form that shows up and struggles in love and life with us, IS the embodiment of God.

This simple truth was demonized to prevent people from finding God. It has hidden God in plain sight. So that man could erect his statues and worship stations to a petty, vengeful god. That is why some people still are so dedicated to Trump.

He is a physical representation of the God they have been conditioned to revere. While the real God, the one that is a loving essence, the one that does not need form to be perceived, the one that beckons all to seek the perfection of their own empowerment, lays hidden to those who need a concrete image to fathom such greatness.

Yet we interact with God in real-time through our kindness to others, through our laser focus on the sweet interactions that are on display for us, and for our own ability to forgo all the conditioning of the ages, and maintain a sweet loving stance towards ourselves and all others.

Our struggles are merely the Universe turning our attention away from the course vibrations of illusion and focusing us back into the heart of what is truth. It is no different from picking up a wiggling toddler and re-positioning them back in their chair to instill the importance of stillness. Or seating a precious gem onto a secure facet. Or planting a beautiful garden in a seemingly inconvenient swatch of land.

Our struggles are the attention Source gives to us to re-calibrate our gratitude and attention onto itself . Every act of kindness, every consideration for others, every humble honoring of self, and every pristine truth; untainted by beguile; is true worship. It is us, moving deeper and more profoundly into the heart of God.

A Gesture to Honor All Life


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I went to the pet store today to get some things for Simha and the Dingos; Bernie and Buster Sanders. After I checked out, I needed to use the restroom. I was tired and ready to go home but something literally called to me. As I walked down an aisle to get to the restroom, I heard a couple crickets. They were actually calling to me to free them.

When you can listen to all of of life, it becomes a sacred form of service, no matter how ridiculous it seems in this world of linear illusion. I had to honor the plea of the crickets and free them. Of course I could not free all of them. But I wanted to find the ones that were calling to me.

There was no way to tell which crickets were calling to me. It is heartbreaking to not be able to free everyone. So I bought five dollars worth to free. I then donned them  surrogates for all of imprisoned beings. It was a means of sending the sacred intention into the Universe to assist all of life to be free.

The bag of crickets freaked me out a bit. They were all jumpy in the bag of air they were sold to me in. I was hesitant to release them because of their irratic energy. I thought they would jump back on me. My friend Therese came home with me to support me in releasing the crickets into my yard. I did not realize at that time that she would be witnessing a sacred ceremony in a sense.


I decided to let them free at the base of the apple tree in my yard. It is a focal point of dynamic energy. As I opened the bag, I expected them to jump all over me. They did not. They were calm and still. The whole moment was imbued with a reverence. It was as if all of nature was tuned in to this sweet moment. Therese and I then realized that it was not about saving a few desperate crickets. What was transpiring from this pure intention was that all of nature was being reseeded. Therese explained it perfectly.


“Jen, we are witnessing a re-balancing of the whole ecosystem. That is what you are doing”.

It felt that important. Perhaps you noticed the moment. Perhaps you felt an expansion in gratitude for nature at the exact moment that we were freeing the crickets. Perhaps you can create your own sacred moment by freeing something back into its natural environment in your own way. Perhaps you can plant a tree, feed the birds, or toss some seeds into the ground.

Something beautiful happened a few hours later. I took the dingoes (my puppies)  in the back yard before dark. As soon as I walked out the back door, I heard the crickets call to me and say thank you. They were singing and happy. It was anther sweet moment and such a pleasant addition to my back yard. I realized that others may enjoy adding this beautiful night sound to their back yard. All it takes is a trip to the pet store and a loving intention.


Chakras and Skittles


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There may be a reason children are attracted to a certain color candy. Children may be choosing their favorite skittle color because they innately know which chakras are working at less of a capacity. They may be choosing the color to correlate with which chakras needs fortifying.

As a technique to explore what your child’s needs are, pay attention to the colors they choose to wear and what colored food they chose to eat. It may be a key to understand how to help them without trying to get them to articulate what they are not able to verbalize.

Violet- Identifying with God, Peace, Wisdom
Indigo- Intuition, a balanced state of mind
Blue-ability to verbalize or express truth
Green- release emotionally suppressed trauma
Yellow -digestion, personal power, manifest goals
Orange- utilization of creative forces
Red- being grounded in the physical body, being loving

This may even be a way to figure out what your pets need by having exact blankets in different colors and observing which one they prefer to use

Keeping Humanity Alive


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Everyone but humans
See roads as just more land
The real danger they accost
Only humans understand

People are the only ones
That dismiss the worth of trees
To all others they are a safe-way
Neighbors, lodging, communities

Humans are the only ones
That dismiss the plight of others
Every other specie lives in harmony
They see all life as brothers

Humans are the only ones
That destroy life just for fun
Others find it a necessity
It’s been this, since life begun

Humans are the only ones
That desecrate the land
They do it out of ignorance
And just because they can

Humans are the only ones
That over emphasize their worth
They’ve been taught to magnify their importance
Ever since their birth

But trees, fresh water, animals, plants and rocks
More than help human’s survive
They are real heroes to us
They keep humanity alive.

Jen Ward 7/17/15

A Person of the Canine Persuasion



Simha is so excited to attend the Book Signing today. She believes she is a celebrity. She arrives and the local grocery store like she is walking the red carpet. She adores the attention and it makes her feel very special. We will be in the Brockport Bookstore today. It is called Lift Bridge Books. You can purchase my books there today and have them signed by me. Simha is waiting to greet you as well.

Being Comfortable in Your Skin

This is the first cute outfit I ever put on Simha. It is still her stance on wearing fur. She believes you should only wear your own fur. Just as I believe, you should only wear your own skin and not try to be someone you are not.