One Thought of You

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One Thought of You

I indulged in one quick thought of you
Etched it in my mind
It transported me to a world
That alone I could not find

Where Love is not sectioned off in pairs
Single file; one to one
But is lavished generously and prevalent
On every single one

Sincerity is commonplace
Intimacy too
Kind intentions are transparent
In everything we do

Love is not locked away
Allotted to just one heart
It is what all eat, sleep, dream and wear
And which we’re all a part

It’s not cast off with ill regard
Or based upon a whim
No, love is what we walk through
Dance, and fly and swim

One thought of you takes me there
Heals my weary heart
That runs this body in this world of illusion
Where we are all separated and apart

Allow me one quick thought
That transforms me to a place
Where everyone in betrothed to love
In sanctity and grace

I can withstand loneliness
As a temporary state
Love is not a random act
Payment, door prize or fate

Love is not contingent
On believing, hope or prayer
Love is allotted to everyone
Even if no one says, “They care”

Meet me in a land
Devoid of guilt or blame
Where I am allowed to love you
With not one hint of shame

Meet me at the altar
Where, in this world is only meant for two
But in this altered Universe
Is shared with everyone and you

I devote my time on earth
To showing others this world too
The one I so easily access
With just one thought of you

Jen Ward 2/15/16

Between the Stillness and the Sky

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I met myself one peaceful night
On glass ice dusted with snow
I awoke from a paralyzing stupor
To tell me what I needed to know

Others will find me inferior
This life will be my cruelest test
That I’ll be admonished, humiliated and scorned
All while I am trying my best

It told me that life wasn’t about being fair
That that was a quaint little notion
My ego will be literally pulverized
My spirit will nearly be broken

The pleasures that others live for
For me would be hard to attain
Every hope and desire will be stripped clear away
Til my true self is all that remains

I told myself this to prepare me
As solace for the upcoming years
The real me knew what lay waiting ahead
The loneliness, anguish and tears

The real me gave me compassion
As I walked silently under the stars
It was the me that saw the whole picture
The journey, the struggle, the scars

I felt that kindness within me
A wisdom that dwelt deeper than pain
It gave me the love to endure knowing
Someday It’d be the only me to remain

Whenever I’m lost, alone or afraid
Or feel like I’m living a lie
I know I can always find my true self
Between the stillness and the sky

Jen Ward 2/6/15

Truth

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Truth is not won by drawing a line in the sand,
It etches in the heart what the mind can’t withstand.

Its forged in a brow all too familiar with pain,
Yet too filled with resolve to hold onto disdain.

It’s not built up in columns nor a heavy façade,
It follows along the cracks of each meandering LeMaurade.

It bleeds through the fibers of the ego’s tattered remains,
‘Til all is bleached unrecognizable but the humility stains.

It crumbles the vestige of the smallness of man,
Reunites the omega with the alpha; where the individual began.

Jen Ward

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Awakening

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Within crusted walls of embedded emotion,
Bombarded by waves of perpetual commotion,
Is a permanent “me” determined to stand,
Slough off adversity like layers of sand.

Draw in the Light from a far away source,
To Stand firm in the Love; seems “par for the course”,
Reverberating in music; a most precious choir,
Break through the dross, confusion and mire.

Emanate, vibrate, reverberate, resound,
Be inundated with such beauty I unfurl and rebound,
Show others imprisoned what awakening can be,
Humbly resonating loving and Free.

Jen Ward 10/21/13

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More Than Family

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Listen close

And you will “hear”

Constant reassurance

A sympathetic ear

 

A lick of the face

In agreement I suppose

The surprising delight

In an ice cold nose

 

The wag of a tail

The warm spot in your bed

The unbridled acceptance

From that tail to the head

 

Toenails that tap

As paws scamper on the floor

They are not here to obey

They are here to adore

Jen Ward, continued

 

They are closer than family

We chose them from the start

They are more than a friend

They are an extension of our heart.

 

Jen Ward

Search and Rescue

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I delve into a pool of quiet conviction
Emerge in a sweat soaked sheet of despair
Believing you have left me somehow
As I reach for you and find nothing there

Sounds have become tinny and off key
Vision has been blurred through the tears
I am dim witted and dumbfound
To feel that my God doesn’t care

I have fought for you through many lifetimes
Ruthlessly defended your stance
Shamelessly praised you until my voice was left raw
But cant even feel you in any romance

All of the victory claims
All of the conjecturing from within
All of the pompous deflecting
Went the way of my original sin

Each kindness is now a sweet victory
From foolish brash hearted pride
It is in emptying myself of all else
That I can feel you welling inside

Now I understand your true nature
It is as pure as a hint of the wind
It is the stillness now that embraces me
Causing all subtle doubt to rescind

You are the Light, the Love and the Music
You are the curve of my smile
I searched for you with every advantage
You sat with me all of the while

Now I know how to serve you
By greeting you in all that I meet
No longer is ego my barometer
Its been the victor in every defeat

“Sir, Let me walk with you sweetly”
Let me carry your ware
By lightening the load of another
I will always feel God everywhere

Jen Ward

3/20/17

Melting into Love

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I don’t want to hurry awake because I want to remember my dreams

I don’t want to jump into my routine. I want to bask in the joy of the new light of day

I don’t want to hurry through feeding my furry family. I want to savor them savoring their meal

I don’t want to be distracted when I am listening to someone. I am honored that they trust me with what is important to them.

I don’t want to skimp when feeding the squirrels and birds. I want to gift them with the experience of abundance.

I don’t want to hold back when sharing truth. I respect everyone too much to dilute myself to appease them.

I don’t want to diminish my experiences or other people by throwing labels on them. That is one step away from dismissing them.

I don’t want to run through life blindly because I don’t want to miss one opportunity to give solace, an insight, or a kindness when it’s truly needed.

I don’t want to cross over thinking that I could have loved, healed or shared more than I have.

I don’t want to leave anything of myself on the table. I want to melt into love in all moments.

Jen Ward 12/6/15