Being Madame Blavatsky


I was told many years ago by my guides that I am Madam Blavatsky. When I saw her the first time, I did not want to believe it because she was so homely. I didn’t even realize that I had special abilities with healing and insights at the time. I wasn’t even devoted to writing back then. The only clue that I had to being special is that incredible gifted healers would show up in my life and be told by their guides to do everything they could to assist me. Knowing this now brings tears to my eyes as I recall the times my guides would intervene on my behalf. They were always there in times when I was scared or overwhelmed; to reassure me.

One such time was when I was about nine. It was in the winter in our decrepit house that was heated by oil fueled space heaters. The grown son of my mother’s lover would taunt us children in many different ways. He was a chain smoker who camped out for the whole day in our small kitchen. He would cackle and say that if one small cigarette butt hit the ground. Our house would go up in moments. One night I went to bed terrified that this was going to happen.

Now looking back, it feels like my guides sat perched right on the other side of my conscious awareness and saturated me in the love that I was not receiving anywhere else. As I went to sleep one night, terrified of a fire, my guides love emerged through the invisible barrier of our realms to nurture me. It wasn’t like they talked to me in words but fed truth right into my heart. They gifted me with the assurance that dying in a fire was not my fate. They imprinted kindness and the sense of being protected within me. I went to sleep happy.

Another time they came to the rescue was when I was told that I had to move out of my family home in four days. I had no prospects, no extra money to secure my own place and no real survival skills to manifest a solution. I was numb with panic. My guides told me then that I did not need to worry about anything but the present moment. Since I was fed, warm safe and clean in the moment, then everything was okay. So all I had to do was focus on the present moment to get to the next one. I did not have to do anything until the moment came that I had to act. Since I had no action to take in the moment, just relax my energy and rest. It worked. I survived. There was less wear and tear in this life using this technique.

So when the same sense of loving presence of guidance seeps through the conscious mind, I pay attention. When it tells me that I am Helena Blavaskty, I am more apt to listen because of the times it has assisted when I was in need. One day I was just playing around with the book with her image on it. I held it up to my face and matched profiles just be funny. My cousin’s jaw dropped as he indeed could see a physical likeness. I asked my sister to take a photo of myself next to the image so that I could see for myself. The likeness was uncanny. I slowly came to terms with the reality of being her and soon discovered many similarities in our lives and one huge difference.

There is a quote by Helena’s mother saying how she feels so bad about the horrific life that Helena is going to have. This quote was made when Helena was already an adult. It also did not compute with her life at that time. Helena had a very good life then. She had financial freedom and got to travel the world doing exactly what she wanted. It is evident to me that Helena’s mother was talking about this present life and what her daughter would endure in this life that I am in the midst of. It is true that this lifetime has held many difficulties for me including being cursed at birth by the present mother. It was funny knowing that Helena’s mother loved her enabled me to reach back through time and space and get a sense of a mothers love from that lifetime. It is a helpful technique to use to get one’s need met.

I am not able to read Madame Blavatsky’s work. It is overwhelming to me. But I don’t like to read anything that I have written in this life either. I am told by people who have read her that our writing is similar. I believe we have a similar passion. Or should I say that my passion has continued through lifetimes.

I got criticism for using this image on my first book. I love how with all that I have endured at the hands of rejection and isolation that people come forward now to give me advice. The truth is, advice to me is an insult. No matter how well-meaning it is, there is a hint of using it as a leverage to diminish someone else. That is why I don’t think of myself as giving advice because it is never my intention to feel superior to others. In fact, this whole life involved taking a stance of deference with other so as to not to deflate the fragility of their human condition.

But when I engage others, that fragility may inadvertently be ruptured so that the spiritual essence of higher awareness can emerge. It is kind of like piercing and deflating the ego so that the true self can be empowered. This is what is happening when people get their feelings hurt by me. It is actually the process of a calloused self being shaved down to the beautiful pink skin of soul.

I chose the cover of me comparing my likeness to Madame Blavatsky for many reasons. The first reason is that my guides told me to. In the same way they have reassured my heart in the past, they give me direction of how to proceed with every little detail of my life. They will also feed understanding into me as well.

They wanted me to own the fact that I am a testament to reincarnation because the belief in just one physical life is still used so prevalently to diminish others. It is funny because John the Baptist talked about how Jesus was the reincarnation of a great soul come back to serve. That part has been edited out of the good book. Think of all the issues that would be curtailed if people understood that they come back to the same conditions that they have created. We will see a lot more self responsibility in the world when reincarnation is adopted as the universal truth; that it is. May my presence speed up that process.

People are growing too aware and spontaneously awakening to the fact that they are eternal souls. The tipping point is being made. I see people’s past lives like someone else would read a holographic news story. But if I can read them, then it means that they are affordable to all. The shifts that happen when people realize the connection between their past traumas and their present issues is miraculous. Profound healing is happening. It is a necessary Segway into humanity adopting higher awareness. The book that I have written, Enlightenment Unveiled, is the first one of many I will write. All the books I write will hold the intention of assisting the individual in accessing their own empowerment. They will even enhance our sense of connection with all other souls.

As far as being a writer, I have devoted this life and others to sharing truths that will free mainstream society of the deluge of lies that have separated them from their empowerment. I encourage everyone to read my books and try the exercises that I share. They are infused with healing and loving intentions for everyone. I have come back to this world and endured so much merely to save everyone from needing the same level of commitment to awakening that I have had invest. May some of you recognize the gifts that you are receiving and allow gratitude to propel you into the heart of divine awareness. May it motivate you to send similar noble intentions out to all others is the spirit of comradary and love.

That is why I have used the image that I have. I stand by my choice and intention.


Not an Indulgence

If my books were about me getting attention and accolades for being a writer I would never have the self esteem to even ask. Life has beaten me down this whole leg of the journey. I don’t say that for sympathy. I say it for understanding. My very survival was ordained so that I could share the truths that are revealed in my writings and now book(s).

The resistance to this awareness, that I share, getting out is incredible. It is pouring new truth into the consciousness that has been stripped from mainstream. This doesn’t happen lightly. I have been gestated in the womb of a very determined woman to get rid of me and flush me out of her body. All the time I was working to create my physical self, she was working to destroy me. To me that is a profound way to explain the incredible resistance that I endure as my mainstay so that I can gift humanity with truth.

You don’t have to ascribe to an agenda, you don’t have to pay dues to a group, you don’t have to debase yourself for a lifetime in a monastery and you don’t have to wait for snippets of truth to gain understanding of yourself in relationship with the Universe. You don’t even have to buy the book. All you have to do is be on my page. Having the book manifested is a great way to anchor such truth in the mainstream of this Universe. That is the purpose of my passion for my book being accepted and even embraced.

In the short time that my first book has been manifested, my dream state has upgraded in how I engage society. The truth of the matter is that the politicians aren’t going to change the world much. They are merely a reflection of the changes that are transpiring on the inner levels. If you believe in dreams, if you opt for a higher awareness in this world, if you put your intention on joy and prosperity for all, choose the candidate that reflects that higher vision. Choose the one that reflects your highest intention for the world. That is a better way to use your manifestation abilities of intention.

It is us individuals that understand the interplay of thoughts and things that will move the world to peace. It is us who afford our dream time to uplifting humanity in very crucial ways. When I sleep, I do not rest. I am engaging third world countries and empowering them with innovation and encouragement. I am meeting with children and empowered souls in communities so they can be conduits for change in specific ways. I am feeding the hungry, healing the sick and empowering the masses. I am loving this world and all souls in it.

This would all seem so narcissistic if I truly thought I was doing it alone. These are the things we do in the inner worlds while others are feigning off nightmares. Yet the more we do this consciously, the more that it is done Universally. This is the truth and reality that is afforded in helping my book be a success. I understand that people want a hard copy. That is my dream for everyone too. But it has taken all my endurance, patience, survival skills and abilities to get it to this point. It is an incredible punch to the gut of status quo mainstream to even have it in existence.

I just spent the night empowering two little boys and their dynamic mother from a third world country to survive, thrive and grow in a politically unstable arena. I was assisting in bringing calm and peace to places that are of warring factions. The devastation seen in this physical filter of world view was changed to a subtle competition as innocuous as competitions that happen between schools in gymnasiums. Everyone had their bright colors on and this depicted celebration. The different groups had special colors on. This meant celebrating together.

This is the kind of shift that having my book manifest can support. I am not withholding any understanding or meaning from anyone. I write higher truths so they can be understood by all. I am not here to make a dishonest buck. I could have converted my skills a long time ago into a means to make tons of money. I am not here to be worshipped. That in itself is a trap. I am not here to start a movement or create a religion.

I am here for all individuals to take back their empowerment in real and tangible ways and utilize their gifts to empowering other. It is profound what we do here. Lets drench the world with sincerity, integrity and kindness. I am still awakening to my own purpose and in doing so wish to awaken you to yours. Your purpose is no less profound than my own.

Please support my books in some way. Your encouragement, enthusiasm and balm are a balm for this weary soul and fuel for empowerment of the masses. I love you all in the real sense. Thank you.

Honor Gaia

The Retreat last weekend was so successful. There is so much enthusiasm to honor Gaia again this Mother’s Day weekend. Honor Mother Earth and Gaia energy by bringing your mother,, family and honoring yourself as mother and Gaia. Teach your family how to honor Gaia by accepting and allowing them to honor you. Please share. The by-product of each retreat is more love and truth in the world. Be a part of the awakening of humanity.

One Thought of You


One Thought of You

I indulged in one quick thought of you
Etched it in my mind
It transported me to a world
That alone I could not find

Where Love is not sectioned off in pairs
Single file; one to one
But is lavished generously and prevalent
On every single one

Sincerity is commonplace
Intimacy too
Kind intentions are transparent
In everything we do

Love is not locked away
Allotted to just one heart
It is what all eat, sleep, dream and wear
And which we’re all a part

It’s not cast off with ill regard
Or based upon a whim
No, love is what we walk through
Dance, and fly and swim

One thought of you takes me there
Heals my weary heart
That runs this body in this world of illusion
Where we are all separated and apart

Allow me one quick thought
That transforms me to a place
Where everyone in betrothed to love
In sanctity and grace

I can withstand loneliness
As a temporary state
Love is not a random act
Payment, door prize or fate

Love is not contingent
On believing, hope or prayer
Love is allotted to everyone
Even if no one says, “They care”

Meet me in a land
Devoid of guilt or blame
Where I am allowed to love you
With not one hint of shame

Meet me at the altar
Where, in this world is only meant for two
But in this altered Universe
Is shared with everyone and you

I devote my time on earth
To showing others this world too
The one I so easily access
With just one thought of you

Jen Ward 2/15/16

Holding Space For Truth

When I started writing, the men who knew my work tried to get me to hold back on sharing. They said it was the means to get people to buy my books. This mentality is rooted in male energy. Female energy gives everything it can in a sense of sisterhood. This is not a man, woman thing; but a yin, yang understanding.
My Guides encouraged me to pour all my work right out into social media and compile my posts as I go. What I didn’t realize was that truth was being extracted from the vibration of earth and my posts were holding space for it.
I now have ten books and the attempt of the negative factions did not succeed in enslaving humanity. The world looks messy right now but it is better than calm complacency. The chaos is a bridge to higher understanding for all.
The negativity we see play out in the world has always been here. But now it is exposed for all to see. That is probably why I named my first book, Enlightenment Unveiled. Because the layers of illusion that have been squelching the awakening of humanity, are being ripped away.

Between the Stillness and the Sky


I met myself one peaceful night
On glass ice dusted with snow
I awoke from a paralyzing stupor
To tell me what I needed to know

Others will find me inferior
This life will be my cruelest test
That I’ll be admonished, humiliated and scorned
All while I am trying my best

It told me that life wasn’t about being fair
That that was a quaint little notion
My ego will be literally pulverized
My spirit will nearly be broken

The pleasures that others live for
For me would be hard to attain
Every hope and desire will be stripped clear away
Til my true self is all that remains

I told myself this to prepare me
As solace for the upcoming years
The real me knew what lay waiting ahead
The loneliness, anguish and tears

The real me gave me compassion
As I walked silently under the stars
It was the me that saw the whole picture
The journey, the struggle, the scars

I felt that kindness within me
A wisdom that dwelt deeper than pain
It gave me the love to endure knowing
Someday It’d be the only me to remain

Whenever I’m lost, alone or afraid
Or feel like I’m living a lie
I know I can always find my true self
Between the stillness and the sky

Jen Ward 2/6/15

What Needs to Happen to Have Peace

Angels need a rest
Visions need to clear
Divides must be mended
Entitlements must be more fair

Dust needs to settle
From the antics of the men
Gardens must be planted
We must return to Zen

Wars must be unwaged
Fevers need to break
The proud and indignant
Must admit to their mistake

Woman must be valued
Of every sect and shape and kind
Perceptions must be given
To the deaf, mute, ignorant and blind

Truths must be spoken
All Lies must rescind
Illusion must be stripped away
Released into the wind

Innocence must be revered
Above Guile and deceit
Pay homage to individuality
And laid upon its feet

Reawaken from all slumber
That has rusted all resolve
Open up love’s floodgates
Coax anguish to dissolve

Forgo all petty squabbles
In all we think, feel, say and do
Then peace will rest upon the land
And settle itself in you.

Jen Ward 1/29/16