The Loneliest Experience

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When I spent the year in involuntary confinement, I had to work through the nights pulling out huge trees stumps. It was an excuse to keep me outside because I wasn’t wanted. I would be laying in the dirt working to dig out the roots with a flash light. I was hungry and lonely. The house was a good ways away and I would watch the window hoping beyond all hopes that “he” would come out to see me and tell me I could come in the house.

I would watch the dining room window looking for a sign that I was going to get to come in the house. I would watch the neighbors window and see movement there. I would fantasize about them coming over, seeing me working and invite me into their home and feed me. I actually thought it was a possibility that someone, any one would care enough to acknowledge me and show me some kindness. My hopes were deflated when the lights went off for the night. It was such a sinking feeling.

It was a devastating lonely existence. I was cold, lonely, hungry and tired and knew that no one cared. That everyone else had warmth and comfort and I had none. No one was going to rescue me.I felt like I was going to spend forever in this predicament because no one was going to give me permission to come in.

This is the experience that plays out a million times over by people who chain their dogs up in their back yard. They are pack animals They want to be inside among the people and have a sense of belonging as much as I did. They deserve it. Their feelings and their quality of life are just as important as mine.

If everyone knew how excruciating this experience is, they would not inflict it on another. Pets need to be treated with compassion. It is hard for me to think of anyone experiencing what I did; regardless of whether they are in a dog body or not. They deserve a sense of belonging. To do less is cruel.

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Loving Balance

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In our natural state, our energy is a perpetual flow of love. There is a desire that borders on compulsion to give and share. We hold a memory of this completeness within our energy field and it is what we aspire to return to.

Due to trauma and fear, our loving flow diminishes to a trickle. This diminishes our access to the energy that fuels and inspires us. We greatly shut down and become less effective in helping ourselves and uplifting others.

Those who are trying hard to become effective again may get skewed in sharing. They are trying their best but their sharing is mental rants or emotional dumping. Since their energy flow is still introverted their sharing is based on fear or problems.

When someone is in this mode of processing, try to listen to them obliquely (if you feel you must listen). Sympathy has a low frequency to it so giving too much sympathy can actually hinder someone more than help them. A greater way to help them is to validate their greatness rather than their issues. Remind them of their resilient spirit and that anything that they are experiencing is temporary. They will try to bring you into their pain but that is only out of fear or loneliness. They don’t understand what they do.

To get out of that state ourselves, the best thing we can do is just give. Give of our talents, our time, our gifts in any way that allows us to prime the pump of generosity and love that is our natural state. But in doing so, realize that we have to include loving ourselves. Because when we can Love others AND Love ourselves, then we are in balance.

Dissolving the Deepest Divide

We come originate from a place of purity and love. It is so pristine that it only exists in light and sound. All the dross that we identify with here on earth do not exist. We only get the rarest hint of our true nature through kind, selfless acts and communing with nature and what is untainted by the human mind.

It isn’t until we incarnate into this world of harsh vibrations that we identify with the things we come into contact with. They imprint on us and formulate the things that define us here; our likes and dislikes. As Light and Sound beings, we have no preference for anything of a base nature. But as humans, who are terrified to be freed of the worlds of illusion, we become accustomed to certain vantage points. These are liken to wearing a comfortable robe. We do not want give them up.

As a species, in this physical world, we are in the process of transcending. We have actually already transcended but we are merely awakening to this fact. Many of us have had enough heartache and loss to surrender easily to the love. But many are so attached to the experience of this course reality; as bloody and as cruel as it is; that they wish to continue the process of living in the harsh illusion of this environment.

The best way to do this is to hold on dearest to the identifications that we have made in this world. One of the first distinctions we have made from other individuals was in the adopting of our skin color. There has always been a core root race that was dominant. The root races of black, white, yellow and red skin have been a way to differentiate ourselves from other individuals so we could gain the perspective in our education as soul as “them vs Us”. We would not learn love, compassion and freedom if we were not privy to the opposites as a contrast. These were afforded to us by having different skin colors as others.

It stands to reason that this was the first primal issue that differentiated us from others in our first incarnation as a human. It makes sense for those who are hell-bent in NOT transcending, they would take umbrage with those of different skin colors as a means to stay entrenched in the human consciousness. It reflects their primal fear of transcending. This we may help them with by assisting them is stripping off some of that fear.

We do that with this exercise of taps, that removes that identification with a particular root race. This will have the added benefit of erasing the prejudice that shows up in this world. By doing these taps as a surrogate for all of humanity, we are demonstrating the presence of our God Force and our own benevolent make up that strip us off ignoble intentions, blind spots and false identifications. At the core we are all pure love. This is what we need to return to.

(Say each statement 3 times while tapping on your head and say each statement a 4th time while tapping on your chest)

I declare myself a surrogate for Humanity in doing these taps; in all moments.

We strip all denial off of the world in identifying with a particular root race; in all moments.

We release allowing root races to divide us; in all moments.

We release allowing any root race to be segregated or diminished by anyone or any group; in all moments

We dissipate the systemic indifference that allows any root race to be deemed superior; in all moments

We remove all masks, walls, and armor from allegiance to any root race; in all moments.

We release allowing the superiority of any root race to be condoned by the elite; in all moments”

We release allowing root races to poison the earth with hate; in all moments”

We release allowing root races to be validated as superior to another; in all moments”

We release allowing root races to gain power over another; in all moments”

We release allowing root races to threaten our personal freedoms; in all moments”

We release sitting by and watching root races be unloving to each other; in all moments

We strip all illusion off of allegiance to root races; in all moments”

We release allowing root races to segregate us; in all moments

We release being indifferent, or apathetic to any root race; in all moments”

We release allowing any root races to erode our civil liberties; in all moments”

We release being separated from our humanity by a particular root race; in all moments”

We release being terrorized by root races; in all moments

We break up the c power mongers of any particular root race; in all moments

We release being immersed in ignorance by any particular root race; in all moments

We prevent root races from instilling fear in the masses; in all moments

We release denying our responsibilities in dealing with the segregation of root races; in all moments.

We release enabling the segregation of root races; in all moments.

We release being stripped of our progressiveness by any particular root race; in all moments.

We release being complacent with the segregation of root races; in all moments.

We release allowing root races to mandate mainstream segregation; in all moments.

We eliminate the first cause in the segregation of root races; in all moments

We strip all illusion and defenses off of the segregation of root races; in all moments

We release converting our empowerment to loyalty to one particular root race; in all moments.

We release being enslaved to any particular root race; in all moments.

We remove all vivaxes between ourselves and the segregation of root races; in all moments.

We remove all tentacles between ourselves and the segregation of root races; in all moments.

We withdraw all our energy from the segregation of root races; in all moments.

We collapse and dissolve all of the segregation of root races; in all moments.

We remove all programming and conditioning the segregation of root races has put on us; in all moments.

We remove all individual and universal engrams of the segregation of root races; in all moments.

We release allowing any particular root race to rob us of our empowerment; in all moments

We release allowing any root races to diminish others; in all moments.

We send all energy matrices into the light and sound that empower the segregation of root races; in all moments.

We command all complex energy matrices that enable the segregation of root races to be escorted into the light and sound; in all moments.

We send all energy matrices into the light and sound that allow any particular root race to wield power; in all moments.

We command all complex energy matrices that allow any root race to wield power to be escorted into the light and sound; in all moments.

We send all energy matrices into the light and sound that allow any root race to diminish another; in all moments.

We command all complex energy matrices that allow any root race to diminish another to be escorted into the light and sound; in all moments.

We recant all vows and agreements between ourselves and all root races; in all moments

Remove all curses between ourselves and all root races; in all moments

We remove all blessings between ourselves and all root races; in all moments

We sever all strings, cords and wires between ourselves and all root races; in all moments

We dissolve all karmic ties between ourselves and all root races; in all moments

We remove all the pain, burden, limitations, fear, futility unworthiness and illusion of separateness that all root races have put on each other; in all moments

We give back to all root races all the Joy, love, abundance, Freedom, health, success, security, companionship, creativity , Peace, life wholeness Beauty Enthusiasm contentment spirituality enlightenment confidence, ability to discern and empowerment that all root races  have taken from them in all moments.

We strip all root races of all their ignoble intentions; in all moments

We strip root races of their illusions of grandeur; in all moments

We crumble all constructs created by any particular root race; in all moments.

We nullify all contracts between ourselves and all root races; in all moments.

We eliminate the first cause in all ignoble intentions between all root races; in all moments.

We release being locked in the sites of any particular root race; in all moments.

We release humanity from engaging in a race war; in all moments.

We release being targeted by any particular race; in all moments.

We relinquish the ruthless pursuit of any root race; in all moments.

We release resonating or emanating with any particular root race; in all moments

We extract all of root races from our individual and Universal Sound Frequency; in all moments

We extract all of root races from our individual and Universal Light Emanation; in all moments

We extract all of root races from all 32 layers of our individual and Universal aura; in all moments

We extract All of root races from our whole beingness; in all moments

We shift our paradigm from root races to Universal individual empowerment and peace; in all moments

We transcend allegiance to any root race; in all moments

We are centered and empowered in universal and individual freedom and peace; in all moments.

We infuse Universal and individual freedom and peace into our sound frequency; in all moments

We imbue Universal and individual freedom and peace into our Light Emanation; in all moments

We resonate, emanate and are interconnected to all life in Universal and individual freedom and peace; in all moments

 

Please Share these with others and ask them to personally do them. Please know you are empowering goodness and kindness in doing these. It is necessary. We don’t have to answer hate with hate. We just need to stand in our empowerment and allow hate to empty its tank. This exercise will assist just that in happening

 

 

To All Those Suffering in Isolation:

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I love your depth and honesty. There is another layer to you feeling alone perhaps. You may be tapping into the Universal feeling of loneliness that is permeating this planet right now. We have been conditioned as a species to be isolated in thoughts and feelings. It is a form of control. You may be releasing this issue, not only for your self but for all of humanity.
 
It is a noble thing to face, express, distinguish and release. Thank you for your heart and depth. This is not a defense of any reaction or drama around it. That is merely a process of trying to figure out what has been kept from us. The reason we feel so flawed as individuals is that we have been kept privy of the whole equation of our dynamic makeup. It is like trying to resolve a math problem without all the variable. You do better than most.
 
Sending love and encouragement to you and all the struggling God beings working to transcend without access to the blueprint. It is Amazing so many still try. But we will succeed. This is what this lifetime is for, That is why you and I write. I appreciate your truth in the world.

GOD

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God doesn’t have an ego so doesn’t need stroking.
Anything that is written about God is a clumsy imperfect attempt to articulate the perfect…it is beyond words.
Man has formulated his concept of God by what HE would desire if he was an omniscient being.
There is the conflict
God has not made man in his own image; man has made God in his.
Think about what you would want for your children.
Would you need them to constantly stroke you or would you prefer that they were happy, and loving and treated their siblings with this love and respect?
I think that is a more accurate depiction of what God would “want” if God was capable of wanting;
God wanting, is an outmoded concept.
Be Loving and kind to each other
Respect all of God’s gifts
Listen to God speak within your heart; not in your mind
Realize your own worth
Appreciate your own gifts
How would you like it if everything you gave your children was scoffed at or overlooked?
How about if they destroyed everything they were given?
And every time they were offered an adventure, it was looked at as a punishment.
Connection with God doesn’t need to happen in an altered state
Or with super sensory perceptions
Every one is able to connect with God in the natural state of simplicity.
No one is wrong or unworthy to do this.
Take things out of your environment to do this, nothing more needs to be added.
You are perfect in your imperfection                                                                                               

And gratitude is the ultimate prayer.

Jen Ward

The Fruit of My Intention

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We were all out to dinner at the Cheesecake Factory on a busy Saturday Night. My first book signing was a success. So everyone who came from out-of-town or out of the country to be a part of it were celebrating. The conversation steered around to vacationing in Florida. A couple who lived there were discussing that their only vacation since moving there was to Sea World.

I made a flippant remark, hoping that I was not up to speed on this issue. I asked, “Did they free Shamu yet?”

The husband was quick to respond. He told me how happy Shamu was in captivity. He explained how loved and well cared for Shamu is. The wife interjected how much the staff adores the inhabitants of Sea World. She was really convincing in how happy everyone was. I took them for their word. I don’t go looking for opinions on matters that don’t come into my personal realm.

But then the husband did something to convince me. He brought out photos of the trip on his phone. Little did he know what he was triggering in me. He brought it into the personal realm for me. He showed me Shamu performing in the tank. I lost it.

All I saw was this great big dynamic life form. Trapped away from all the other dynamic beings of his kind who were frolicking in the ocean. Oh yes he was privy to them all. Yes, he had access to all that they had access to through subtle senses that humans choose to ignore in themselves and other beings. He was well aware of what he was missing by not being out in the ocean. He did not feel special for performing for people. They were like minnows to him in comparison. Humans flatter themselves so, and think their praise is worth the confinement. It is not.

Of COURSE he missed being in the ocean with his extended pod. Of course he was not happy answering to the whims of petty humans. Their adoration meant nothing compared to being separated from the connection and expansiveness of being in the ocean with his own kind. All I saw was the small container he was in, compared to vast ocean that the others were experiencing right out of his physical reach.

My response wasn’t mental or even emotional. It was primal. I was already sensitive from being present in a new and dynamic way in the world at my first book signing. I was surrounded by people who respected me and my work. We were old friends who hadn’t met in the physical skin until this weekend. The book signing, assisting in welcoming a new dynamic level of awareness into the world was the reason we were all present.

For the first time in this life, I was not invisible or competing for an excuse to show up. The work I am doing, the reason I incarnated now, and the incredible golden footprint that I am leaving on this planet were all being realized. The backdrop of this fabulous restaurant with a group of dynamic people who value me were factored in. Yet seeing Shamu isolated from every one of his free relatives and constricted in a container hit me like being in a sarcophagus myself; as I politely viewed the picture.

Right there in a booth for eight, right in the middle of the Cheesecake factory on a busy Saturday night, without any control or restraint, I burst into volatile sobs for Shamu. It could not be stopped. The primal sobbing lasted for a few minutes. I did not care about anyone around me. I did not care who saw me or who heard me. I was releasing for Shamu and myself.

It is hard to describe the angst that goes through me when something like this happens. It was me tapping into the sweet Innocence of my baby kittens who don’t know anything about suffering or cruelty. It is me hellbent on them never knowing it. That is the primal consideration of every loving parent right?

On the other end of the spectrum is the devastation of a beautiful superior being kept from the simple joy of freedom and being kept from the interaction of his own kind. He is someone’s child. Everyone who is exploited, imprisoned, diminished, or abused is someone’s child. This is where I go energetically. The pain of the contrast is too great to be held in. It must be released in myself and in the world.

I only hope my catharsis was directly for Shamu. I hope it eased any angst in him, if there is indeed angst in him; and perhaps in all the multitudes. May he and all those who are separated from their joy, get a sense of how temporary the separation is and how subjective time and space are. My true wish for all souls everywhere is that they all, we all, are consciously reconnected with our primal joy. That is the whole of my intention in the world. That is my whole purpose for being here in the world now and the motivation behind every word.

May you, and everyone experience the fruit of this intention.

The Metaphysics of Child’s Play

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Liftbridge Book Store is a magical and wonderful place to visit. They have many items to nurture the imagination. I collect marbles from the store. It sounds silly as an adult right? But they are not marbles to me. They are planets. They are props I use to stretch my imagination and do dynamic healing. I pour healing love into all the earth. I use a little necklace bead that looks like earth to help shift my vantage point to be vast enough to engulf earth with healing love and peace.
 
The marbles are a prop to help me stretch my vantage point to not only pour healing love into earth, but into all the planets of the lower worlds. The planets of the lower worlds are depicted in my imagination as marbles. See? this is what child’s play is. It is why child;s play is so important. It is not merely the musings of the innocent. It is a metaphysical means to remove all limitations of the small linear mind and to be exponential and empowered. We are not linear beings but starbursts of energy.. We are Light, Love and Music Expounding.
 
This is what we do when we ignite our imagination and creativity. In this way, we are all superheroes, healers and saviors of the Universe. It is troubling that so many industries have manipulated play to be destructive. Toy guns and blowing up things is something that has been ingrained in our society. It takes a strong conviction to turn a child’s mind and heart away from such conditioning and keep their organic connection with innocence, kindness and compassion intact. I commend all the parents, and teachers that do that.
 
I would love to see you today at the book signing at 2 pm eastern in Brockport NY. If you can’t make it today, please stop in some time. You can pick up one of my books or regain some of your childlike wonder as well.