Massive Post-retreat Jenuine Healing~ by Lara Wahl



What Jen Ward does is powerful beyond words. Why else are we here but to commit to experiencing this TRUEST of healings for ourselves? She creates MASSIVE shifts that help shave off MANY lifetimes worth of work that would have been spent in anguish. I just got back from the retreat with my whole family and this experiences has fundamentally changed our lives. I can’t tell you how powerful this work is when done with the WHOLE FAMILY, let alone oneself. This is my best attempt to try to put into words the EVER expansive dynamic work we experienced.

The best way I can put it is that when I alone started doing this work with Jen, she helped me become keenly aware of all those glass ceilings of unworthiness I put on myself my whole life. The limitations that told me I wasn’t deserving of a happy life, an INFINITELY supportive LOVING partner,and respect. The conditioning that reinforced that I didn’t deserve a loving community of kind friends, healthy boundaries respected by others etc.. I believed It was okay that I wasn’t happy or living my fullest, because it was my “sacrifice” for my family’s sake and I should just be thankful. I didn’t even realize how much I was sabotaging or SACRIFICING myself. I’m sure a lot of mothers can relate to this. Jen helped me realize all of this. True thankfulness is not about enabling takers. Genuine gratitude fosters mutual respect and reciprocity. Opening up to my own empowerment is not a selfish thing. It enables me to empower all those around me in a way that being an unfulfilled martyr does not. !!

I reached a breaking point with personal struggles and when Jen came into my life through a friend, IMMEDIATELY her words and work resonated with me. I had studied healing lineages and work my whole life, but nothing was as poignantly truthful as her effortless way to perceive and PIERCE to the truth of the matter of all things. She has this way through her tremendous compassion and LOVE to tap into the grid that acknowledges and supports communications of pure and simple truth . Through her work with me in helping me see the glass ceilings that inundated me, we shattered them all!

I started even being able to “SEE” by tapping into direct truth, through opening with LOVE, now that I wasn’t so stuck in the muck of unworthiness which is part of the linear enslavement of 3-d. I was becoming VERY expansive in LOVE, honoring all beings as equal reflections of myself which one experiences at the 5th dimension. – THIS helped me help so much in my work of teaching seniors and others yoga. It helped me in my personal life dissolve all conditioned bad habits, gossip, boundary crossing, anger, cursing etc. It opened me up to tap directly into the truth that was reflected in everything that unfolded in my day-to-day from interpersonal relationships, to even complex concepts about ecology, the human body, and science!

Martina came with me the first time I met Jen in person, last October. Martina has a gift of being able to tap into truth in the same kind of way, but she suffered from speech delays and severe shyness about speaking up, even when she knew something wasn’t right whether in the world, or someone being mean etc. After that retreat we were both changed to our core, and all of Martina’s speech delays, shyness and aversion to speaking up were GONE. Jen treated her with the SAME exact respect as she does with the adults and with all beings. She validated her gifts, and empowered her genius! I can’t tell you how much this kid SHARES truth now. It’s incredible.

Soon I realized there was a schism that had to be addressed at home with my partner, Jason. He was no longer the man I had married. He used to be this great vibrant SUN in the middle of our community of friends. But lately he had been consumed with making money, work, and it felt like he was no longer kind or caring about anyone. It broke my heart to see how miserable he was, and I was starting to realize that the more empowerment and shifting I was doing, the more I could see truly ugly qualities in him that I could no longer bear. I couldn’t leave him behind so I encouraged him to do the work again and again, but he only saw it as nagging. Finally I reached a breaking point with him after I saw how truly horribly he was treating me with such lack of respect that I told him I had to leave him, and was starving for the love of a partner. This SNAPPED him into consciousness again like a defibrillator!

Of his own volition he started awakening and wanting to do the work. He feared losing his family and the love and life we had built if he didn’t. He knew that both our daughters, Zo and Martina, and I were going to Jen’s retreat this February with my mom, and he wanted to come. This SHOCKED ME. This man has NEVER done any spiritual work in his life and he was diving into the work of one of the most BAD ASS MASTERS of time, Space, Loving Graciousness, and healing I knew!

What I can say after an entire weekend with Jen of the deepest healing work any of us had ever done, is that I am SHOCKED and amazed at how QUICKLY Jason is also SEEING now all those glass ceilings of unworthiness and self sabatoge he had been perpetuating onto himself and others. They had been robbing so much from him. The way in which he was, as Jen says, “Buying money with happiness.” He saw how untrusting he was of others and me. It caused him to always keep me at bay, in fear of me hurting him. It was because of past trauma – that he FINALLY SUCCESSFULLY addressed and RELEASED with Jen! If I didn’t understand how it worked I would say it was ABSOLUTELY A MIRACLE!! It was MAGICAL!!! But now I know. It is neither of these things. It is the GRACE of ENLIGHTENMENT. That IS the TRUTH of what Jen is, ENLIGHTENED. And that is what she empowers ALL OTHERS to be, ENLIGHTENED.

By bringing the WHOLE family, we are able to SHIFT EXPONENTIALLY without leaving anyone behind. THIS WORK IS CONTAGIOUS of course. And when people COMMIT to learning from Jen’s work, EVERYONE in our radius is brought into expansion and awareness, but if anyone really wants to speed healing work along, with the whole family, I STRONGLY suggest bringing every person you can to do work with Jen, to get in on some of this! Imagine EVERYONE you know their happiest, most abundant, loving, empowered, effective selves! There is without a doubt 1,000% success rate!

There was a moment I was worried about the money for the retreat. But I can tell you that the moment my two little girls stood in the center of the room and Jen helped show Zoe HOW much Martina needs her big sister’s LOVE and protection, and KINDNESS- and having ZOe REALLY get that……., seeing the shift in them both- that ALONE made it worth it. The work was evident EVEN in the car ride home with Jason- seeing him BE genuinely a GIVER, a KIND LOVING human that I feel supported by again! Having him GENUINELY GET IT and breakthrough, and apologize to me, speak to me with an energy of GENUINE mutual RESPECT and reciprocity-is priceless! It is so worth it to see him realize the work he needs to do!!! I can’t even tell you how many Millions of dollars THAT would be worth! And her retreats and sessions are so affordable. Jen gives and gives, and all she wants is to help MORE people. All she wants is to help the ENTIRE WORLD shift from the complacency of suffering, male hierarchies, linear limitations, unworthiness and oppression TO the RESPLENDENT STATE of LOVE, compassion, Abundance, Kindness, and INFINITE EMPOWERMENT we all experienced this weekend, and WILL CONTINUE to benefit from.

We are FINALLY all-seeing how much we were depriving of ourselves. We are FINALLY able to KNOW WE ARE WORTHY of an infinitely HAPPY LIFE, We are LOVED, and We are POWERFUL with Love at helping others.

I know I’ll be writing about this experience for many years to come. We covered so much. So many ROOT issues were addressed. So many people got such DEEP insight in their own family dynamics! So many individuals with vastly different issues than ours… without even saying a word, Jen “reads” people in energy and knows exactly where the issues and stagnation are that need to be addressed and released! It is a GIFT TO BEHOLD. I am always AMAZED watching her work. So many happy tears were shed watching her free person by person of all their pain, like beautiful phoenixes rising from ashes with resplendent wings into their happiest freest selves!! It was so beautiful.

So many lifetimes of work was addressed… SO many will benefit from the ripple effect. It has an incalculable magnitude beyond the millions. It is inevitable, but at the same time I URGE those who are not fully happy to RISE to the call that has been desperate for it to be heard, for them to free themselves. And to know that you have a BAD ASS MOTHER of All exponential Healers in Jen Ward, available to all, who can really help you so deeply and expedient. Things I never knew possible with Jason and with my kids, were achieved this weekend.

Jen, All the happiness you’ve helped us reclaim and realize that we are worthy… We just love you so much. You are an invaluable treasure on this earth.

(Pictured: My family with Jen’s fur babies, “Buster and Bernie” enjoying a beautiful winter wonderland walk with a post retreat glow.)

Intention in Attention

When the family pet comes over to you for affection, drop everything and give them the love that only you can provide. Once this becomes a healthy habit, realize it applies to children and other family members as well.
Before too long, it will become comfortable to give your undivided love and attention to friends, co-workers and any one you interact with. Even strangers on the street will be uplifted by merely interacting with you.
Eventually, you may be able to recognize you being kinder to yourself and giving yourself a higher quality of care as well.

How to Connect to Your Spirit Guides


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Don’t worry about figuring out who your Guides are. There are so many Guides and helpers on the other side, trying to figure out who they are is like thinking you may know someone because you know someone with the same last name.

Guides are mentors. They are not interested in being worshiped. Worshiping them or adulating them is a way of keeping them at bay. Because you keep yourself at a lower vantage point. It is never helpful to anyone to put anyone on a pedestal. Think of your Guides as more of best friends that someone to adulate. Keep the respect. Just lose the adoration. They will still be larger than life. But with a tweak in this dynamic, you can expand your consciousness to be present with them. They are always present with you. It is you that has to shift from the human consciousness to be present with them.

Have conversations with them in your mind. If you get information that may be their guidance. Don’t ask a third party for validation. Learning to listen and communicate with your Guides is a form of turning up the volume on your own awareness. It is part of the process of awakening. Asking a third party is a form of giving your power away and is counter to the empowerment needed to connect to your Guides.

Don’t be afraid of what others may think of you. The Ancient ones are immersed in Love. Being even self conscious is a form of fear.  Fear is the opposite of Love. When ever you are diminishing yourself with self consciousness, you have to let it go to be more conscious. It is a form of an oxymoron.

Pay attention to subtle cues that are spiritual lessons through your day. Everything that is happening around us is cues to our spiritual lessons. The more we look for the lessons, the more we will see the synchronicity during our day.

When you awake, put out the intention, like an invitation, for your Guides to make their presence known to you. They are ever present. It is you that must hone your awareness to be able to perceive them. Imagine them watching you as you go through your day. This may help dry up any residual negative behavior or language. Just being able to remind yourself of their presence during the day is a discipline. It is stretching the capacity or your awareness.

Be loving and kind at all times. If not merely to be loving and kind, your actions raise your vibrations. Anything you can do to raise your vibrations, also raises your consciousness. Since the Ancient Ones are immersed in Love, the more loving you are, the closer you are to their vibration.

Pay attention to what people say and all the other messages you hear during the day. These are messages from your Guides. If you notice a continuing theme when you talk to different people or have different experiences, take heed. This is your Guides speaking through all life.

Pay attention to unexpected visitors. Animals, nature and strange occurrences are used to get a point across to someone who is still afraid of being approached by their Guides.

Only think and say positive things. It is a quick way of raising your vibratory rate to be at the closer frequency to your Guides. Stop the self derision. If you don’t believe you are worthy,  your Guides won’t waste their energy fighting the human resistance.

Mock up walking and talking with your Guides through the day. You can actually feel their protection from negativity the more you do this.

Remember your connection with your imagination, nature, your toys and other childlike musings. Children are naturally able to tap into their awakened self. Perhaps you have had conversations with your Guides when you were very young and merely forgot. Perhaps remembering your childhood and re-entering that innocent state is a short cut to connecting to your Guides.

Set the intention to visit with your Guides during the dream state. The dream censor garbles truth as to not overload the conscious mind. So when you have dreams of someone you respect, it is most likely your Guides taking a form that is positive to you. Pay attention to the positive people that appear in your dreams. The positive traits they display are the special traits of your Guides.

Pay attention to your dreams. These are nuggets of truth for you to discern. Pay attention to your dream symbols during the day. The more attention you put on discerning truth, the more you will train yourself to perceive truth. It is you striving for more connection in a comfortable way that will assist you in connecting with your Guides. It is not a desperate climb up a steep mountain. It is a leisurely hike up a spiraling hill.

Keep what is sacred to you, to yourself. It is really easy for others to burst our bubble of enthusiasm. This is true with all that we hold sacred as well. It may not even be safe to share with a spouse. It is not that they can’t be trusted. It is that you are trying to pull the sublime into a linear world. Take inventory of your reasons to share. Do you want to appear special, need approval, or are you trying to recruit your spouse to your level of awareness?  None of these reasons will fly with a Guide. They have been with us longer than one life. The care less about the backdrop of our activities here. To them it is like….a teacher obsessing over the lesson on the chalk board. This life is just a prop for you to hone your spiritual awareness

Listen more, talk less.  Every aspect of our day is a teacher. It is up to us to respect the classroom. If we go on autopilot, it is turning down the volume of our awareness. it is our choice not to listen to truth.

Pay attention to your gut and heart feelings. These are energy sensors for perceiving truth as valid as your eyes, and ears are as sensory receptors.

Validate all others as you go. Your Guides not only care about what is precious to you. They are actually teaching you to be a Guide as well. This is how humanity perpetuates truth and understanding. So realize it is not about you. It is about how you can help others. This is a means of preventing the awareness that you glean from becoming a stagnant state. Truth, love, kindness and  awareness must keep moving and flowing to stay pure.



Relationship Worksheet


The biggest issue that people seem to lament about is getting over a relationship with another person. That is because when you are intimate with someone, you swap energy freely. But when you part, you have left an energetic aspect of yourself with them. You walk around talking about them because you are trying to get your essence back from them. Here is the protocol to do just that.

Now you never have to suffer at the hands of a past lover and be left un-whole. Now you don’t have to be hesitant to give al of yourself to the next person because now you have the means to energetically regain your empowerment. In fact, because these taps are preference; “In all moments” you are safe guarded from being fragmented in the future as well.

This protocol is simply meant to put your fate back in your own hands where it should be. It is not merely words. Doing this protocol is you being the shaman, it is you being empowered. It is you taking back your energy and releasing the things that have been weighing you down. It is also repairing your energy field so that you are not susceptible in the future. It is you taking back your empowering and freeing you to love as unabashedly as your truly desire without the fear of being annihilated in the process.

It may feel so freeing to do these taps for past partners that you may want to do them regarding every person in your life. You may want to untangle yourself from every family member, co-worker, boss and friend. You may even want to do this protocol with every organization or idea that has held you back. Here is to you freeing yourself in a very profound way. Maybe in releasing all entanglements, you can finally get an understanding of who you really are unhindered and free.

You can make it a practice to do this once a day with a different person. You can even do it with groups, subjects, concepts, and anything else that limits your freedom.

(Say each statement 3 times out loud while CONTINUOUSLY tapping on the top of your head at the crown chakra and say it a fourth time while tapping on your chest at the heart chakra)

“I release being with ___________ out of habit; in all moments”
“I release feeling dependent on ____________; in all moments”
“I release feeling beholden to ___________; in all moments”
“I release being enslaved to ___________; in all moments”
“I remove all vivaxes between myself and _____________; in all moments”
“I remove all tentacles between myself and _____________; in all moments”
“I remove the claws of ___________ from my beingness; in all moments”
“I remove all programming and conditioning that __________ has put on me; in all moments”
“I remove all engrams of __________ from my beingness; in all moments”
“I send all energy matrices into the Light and Sound that limit my freedom in regards to __________; in all moments”
“I command all complex energy matrices that limit my freedom in regards to __________; to be escorted into the Light and Sound by my Guides; in all moments”
“I strip all illusion off of my dynamics with __________; in all moments”
“I withdraw all my energy from ___________; in all moments”
“I eliminate the first cause in regards to _______________; in all moments”
“I remove all masks, walls and armor that I have worn because of ____________; in all moments”
“I nullify all contracts with __________; in all moments”
“I recant all vows and agreements between myself and __________; in all moments”
“I remove all curses between myself and __________; in all moments”
“I sever all strings and cords between myself and __________; in all moments”
“I dissolve all karmic ties between myself and __________; in all moments”
“I remove all the pain, burden, limitations and engrams that _________ has put on me; in all moments”
“I remove all the pain, burden, limitations and engrams that I have put on ___________; in all moments”
“I take back all the Joy, Love, Abundance, Freedom, Health, Success, Security, Companionship, Creativity, Peace, Life, Wholeness, Beauty, Enthusiasm, Contentment, Spirituality, Enlightenment and Confidence that ____________ has taken from me; in all moments”
“I give back all that I have taken from ____________; in all moments”
“I release resonating with ______________; in all moments”
“I release emanating with ______________; in all moments”
“I remove all of _____________ from my sound frequency; in all moments”
“I remove all of _____________ from my light body; in all moments”
“I shift my paradigm from __________ to Joy, Love, Abundance, Freedom, Health, Success, Security, Companionship, Creativity, Peace, Life, Wholeness, Beauty, Enthusiasm, Contentment, Spirituality, Enlightenment and Confidence; in all moments”
“I strip all illusion off of ___________ for myself; in all moments”
“I transcend ____________; in all moments”
“I repair and fortify the Wei Chi on all my bodies; in all moments”
“I align all my bodies; in all moments”
“I am centered and empowered in Joy, Love, Abundance, Freedom, Health, Success, Security, Companionship, Creativity, Peace, Life, Wholeness, Beauty, Enthusiasm, Contentment, Spirituality, Enlightenment and Confidence; in all moments”
“I resonate, emanate and am interconnected with all life in Joy, Love, Abundance, Freedom, Health, Success, Security, Companionship, Creativity, Peace, Life, Wholeness, Beauty, Enthusiasm, Contentment, Spirituality, Enlightenment and Confidence; in all moments”

This opportunity to free yourself is my gift to you. The gift that you can give yourself is to recognize its value and to take this technique seriously. Devotion to a true love is noble. But many of us have spiritually outgrown blind loyalty. It is important for everyone’s empowerment, to know the difference.

I can also benefit you to give to your friends and family members who are dealing with a break up. When they lament about another person, they are begging the Universe for help. This worksheet is the Universe answering their call through you.

Love and Family


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The purpose of family is to teach us to love outside of ourselves. It is a means to send an intention out of ourselves towards another being to teach us to outflow. It is meant to be a perpetual ebbing out of love that starts with you.

Love is not meant to stop at the confines of family. It is not meant to stop at all. It has become so habitual to pull the love back into a closed circuit and only love your family, that the concentric circles that are supposed to ripple out in the Universe, have stopped at the confines of family. They have become multidimensional orbs of confined love.

The purpose of friends is to teach people to love beyond the confines of family. Those little closed circles that we have created are too small to contain the love that we put forth. Friends are the dangling carrot to an intention to send your love out farther.

The purpose of our communities is to ripple out our incredible love to reach farther into the world. The Universe is calling upon you to send your love out beyond the confines of your capacity to grasp it. It wants you to surrender your unabashed love into all directions. Loving your community is great training wheels to do this. But why stop there?

The purpose of the world is for you to send your love out in all directions and to know that no matter how far you send it, it will always circle back and return to you.
It is not important to withhold your love to only your family members, only your friends, or only your community. It is meant to share as much as you can without concern of what you may be giving out with no return.

If you give love, it will be returned. The ego wants it to be returned from the same direction that it came. But the nature of love is to continue on. When you stop to wait to receive, you are changing your intention and in doing so, pinching the incredible flow of love that you have. Always love and love will be your mainstay.

A Friend is NOT:


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Someone to Emotionally Blackmail
There to be diminished
Meant to use as a backdrop to shine
A yes machine
A means to feel okay when you are not being your best
Someone to continually take from
Dysfunction extended beyond your family

A Friend is someone:

To rise up to
To hold you in check
Reflect your beauty, kindness and integrity back to you
Hone your social skills
Who makes you a better version of you
In agreement with your highest self
Knows the difference between judgement and encouragement
Abhors diminishing others as much as you do
That respects you as well as themselves
Energizes your awesome
Is symbiotic with the most dynamic version of you
Tells you like it is from the heart and with compassion.

If you are surrounded by the former, you are doing yourself a disservice. If you have at least one of the latter, you are doing pretty good. Tell that person thank you. They are important in your life and important to the world. The world needs more friends in it. So thank them for raising the bar on us all.