I was told many years ago by my guides that I am Madam Blavatsky. When I saw her the first time, I did not want to believe it because she was so homely. I didn’t even realize that I had special abilities with healing and insights at the time. I wasn’t even devoted to writing back then. The only clue that I had to being special is that incredible gifted healers would show up in my life and be told by their guides to do everything they could to assist me. Knowing this now brings tears to my eyes as I recall the times my guides would intervene on my behalf. They were always there in times when I was scared or overwhelmed; to reassure me.
One such time was when I was about nine. It was in the winter in our decrepit house that was heated by oil fueled space heaters. The grown son of my mother’s lover would taunt us children in many different ways. He was a chain smoker who camped out for the whole day in our small kitchen. He would cackle and say that if one small cigarette butt hit the ground. Our house would go up in moments. One night I went to bed terrified that this was going to happen.
Now looking back, it feels like my guides sat perched right on the other side of my conscious awareness and saturated me in the love that I was not receiving anywhere else. As I went to sleep one night, terrified of a fire, my guides love emerged through the invisible barrier of our realms to nurture me. It wasn’t like they talked to me in words but fed truth right into my heart. They gifted me with the assurance that dying in a fire was not my fate. They imprinted kindness and the sense of being protected within me. I went to sleep happy.
Another time they came to the rescue was when I was told that I had to move out of my family home in four days. I had no prospects, no extra money to secure my own place and no real survival skills to manifest a solution. I was numb with panic. My guides told me then that I did not need to worry about anything but the present moment. Since I was fed, warm safe and clean in the moment, then everything was okay. So all I had to do was focus on the present moment to get to the next one. I did not have to do anything until the moment came that I had to act. Since I had no action to take in the moment, just relax my energy and rest. It worked. I survived. There was less wear and tear in this life using this technique.
So when the same sense of loving presence of guidance seeps through the conscious mind, I pay attention. When it tells me that I am Helena Blavaskty, I am more apt to listen because of the times it has assisted when I was in need. One day I was just playing around with the book with her image on it. I held it up to my face and matched profiles just be funny. My cousin’s jaw dropped as he indeed could see a physical likeness. I asked my sister to take a photo of myself next to the image so that I could see for myself. The likeness was uncanny. I slowly came to terms with the reality of being her and soon discovered many similarities in our lives and one huge difference.
There is a quote by Helena’s mother saying how she feels so bad about the horrific life that Helena is going to have. This quote was made when Helena was already an adult. It also did not compute with her life at that time. Helena had a very good life then. She had financial freedom and got to travel the world doing exactly what she wanted. It is evident to me that Helena’s mother was talking about this present life and what her daughter would endure in this life that I am in the midst of. It is true that this lifetime has held many difficulties for me including being cursed at birth by the present mother. It was funny knowing that Helena’s mother loved her enabled me to reach back through time and space and get a sense of a mothers love from that lifetime. It is a helpful technique to use to get one’s need met.
I am not able to read Madame Blavatsky’s work. It is overwhelming to me. But I don’t like to read anything that I have written in this life either. I am told by people who have read her that our writing is similar. I believe we have a similar passion. Or should I say that my passion has continued through lifetimes.
I got criticism for using this image on my first book. I love how with all that I have endured at the hands of rejection and isolation that people come forward now to give me advice. The truth is, advice to me is an insult. No matter how well-meaning it is, there is a hint of using it as a leverage to diminish someone else. That is why I don’t think of myself as giving advice because it is never my intention to feel superior to others. In fact, this whole life involved taking a stance of deference with other so as to not to deflate the fragility of their human condition.
But when I engage others, that fragility may inadvertently be ruptured so that the spiritual essence of higher awareness can emerge. It is kind of like piercing and deflating the ego so that the true self can be empowered. This is what is happening when people get their feelings hurt by me. It is actually the process of a calloused self being shaved down to the beautiful pink skin of soul.
I chose the cover of me comparing my likeness to Madame Blavatsky for many reasons. The first reason is that my guides told me to. In the same way they have reassured my heart in the past, they give me direction of how to proceed with every little detail of my life. They will also feed understanding into me as well.
They wanted me to own the fact that I am a testament to reincarnation because the belief in just one physical life is still used so prevalently to diminish others. It is funny because John the Baptist talked about how Jesus was the reincarnation of a great soul come back to serve. That part has been edited out of the good book. Think of all the issues that would be curtailed if people understood that they come back to the same conditions that they have created. We will see a lot more self responsibility in the world when reincarnation is adopted as the universal truth; that it is. May my presence speed up that process.
People are growing too aware and spontaneously awakening to the fact that they are eternal souls. The tipping point is being made. I see people’s past lives like someone else would read a holographic news story. But if I can read them, then it means that they are affordable to all. The shifts that happen when people realize the connection between their past traumas and their present issues is miraculous. Profound healing is happening. It is a necessary Segway into humanity adopting higher awareness. The book that I have written, Enlightenment Unveiled, is the first one of many I will write. All the books I write will hold the intention of assisting the individual in accessing their own empowerment. They will even enhance our sense of connection with all other souls.
As far as being a writer, I have devoted this life and others to sharing truths that will free mainstream society of the deluge of lies that have separated them from their empowerment. I encourage everyone to read my books and try the exercises that I share. They are infused with healing and loving intentions for everyone. I have come back to this world and endured so much merely to save everyone from needing the same level of commitment to awakening that I have had invest. May some of you recognize the gifts that you are receiving and allow gratitude to propel you into the heart of divine awareness. May it motivate you to send similar noble intentions out to all others is the spirit of comradary and love.
That is why I have used the image that I have. I stand by my choice and intention.