The Most Glamorous Thing…….

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The most glamorous thing about having a book signing is telling people you are having a book signing. In reality, it is putting one’s’ self in a very vulnerable state. It is not like a Kardashian launching their next whim or a president writing a book on behalf of their popular pooch. It is not like Justin Bieber being discovered in at mall. It is a desperate, quiet cry for validation of one’s contribution to an indifferent barrage of strangers.
A person who writes a book usually is introspective enough to be able to write a book. That indicates right there that there is a chunk of time not committed to social skill. One who is more comfortable alone with their thoughts, may not feel so comfortable in a crowd. It is fair to say that, in general, a writer may sacrifice their social aptitude for their writing. So to display themselves out in front of a crowd can be awkward.
A book Signing entails sitting in front of a crowd of disinterested strangers hoping for a crumb of interest in what you have poured your essence into. True, the market is inundated with vanity books. This only makes it more difficult for a dedicated writer to be discovered among the fluff. To have eight books to offer thus far to the public, as I do, shows either a passion for writing, a narcissistic streak, or a true calling to contribute to humanity. I believe it is the latter.
To spend all of my days alone, with no social interaction to putting myself in front of strangers is a stretch. It is an act of faith. There are subtle dreads involved that could fill a whole other book. When one writes a book, they don’t really think through what it entails to have it accepted by mainstream. It is a whole totally different job description than writing the books.
Today I will be at Lift Bridge Book Shop in Brockport NY. It is a home town atmosphere there. They are very gracious and accommodating. To ease the sting of sitting vulnerable to the public, I am offering five dollar readings with the proceeds going to the arbor fund to plant more trees in town. It is not really a reading that people are used to.
I am a medical intuitive who reads Akashic records. So I can tell the passer-by, what the issue is in their body, and what caused it in a past life. Then I can actually assist them in changing the script on their programming to release the stagnant energy causing the disturbance. Not bad for five bucks huh?
I hope some of you will who are local and see this will come out to say hi to me. It is a long shot. But so is most of the things that others take for granted in this life. Heck, I am not even sure if anyone reads my page anymore with the way the algorithms are screwed with. If you do, maybe you can like the Book Shop’s page. https://www.facebook.com/LiftBridgeBooks/
But next time that you see a book signing, have compassion for the writer. It doesn’t seem like a heroic thing to do, but for them, sitting there, making themselves available to you, may be some of their hardest work.

In My Humble Opinion….

“In my humble opinion” is an oxymoron. Opinions are anything but humble.

(Say each statement 3 times out loud while CONTINUOUSLY tapping on the top of your head at the crown chakra and say it a fourth time while tapping on your heart Chakra

“I release using opinions to hide my lack of awareness in all moments”
“I release hoarding opinions as facts; in all moments”
“I release gorging on opinions; in all moments”
“I release using opinions to validate myself; in all moments”
“I release being laden in heavy layers of opinions; in all moments”
“I release sharing opinions to feel important; in all moments”
“I release confusing opinions for truth; in all moments”
“I release adopting others opinions as my own; in all moments”
“I release confusing opinions for power; in all moments”
“I release using opinions to diminish truth; in all moments”
“I release using opinions to railroad others; in all moments”
“I release using opinions to seem superior to other; in all moments”
“I release clinging strongly to opinions; in all moments”
“I release confusing opinions with virtue; in all moments”
“I release inundating the world with opinions; in all moments”
“I release controlling others with opinions; in all moments”
“I release using opinions to feel worthy; in all moments”
“i drop all opinions to embrace truth; in all moments”
“I shift my paradigm form opinions to awareness;in all moments”
“I am centered and empowered in the stillness of Universal love and truth; in all moments”

Releasing Self Loathing

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A client messaged me about her foster dog. It almost bit the vet. She had already had a different foster dog that bit others so she was frustrated. The thought crossed her mind for an instant about putting him down. This horrified her. She was inquiring if a session would help the situation. Was she attracting defensive dogs?

I had a sense of what the issue was. I asked her if she had had any plastic surgery. She said yes. She had implants. The two issues were related and so I agreed to do a session with her. When someone has elective surgery, the body sometimes feels defensive. Here it is doing everything to be the best body it can, yet it is not good enough. The defensive dog was a reflection of her issues with herself. The connections may seem subtle at first but the clues were there.

In the session, there were deep issues about self loathing. It was really surprising because this woman is so intelligent and accomplished and aware. I asked her about the elective surgery. She said she had implants but wanted them removed. They looked good, they weren’t uncomfortable but they made her uneasy. It was not the implants that made her uneasy but the emotional issues that were stored at the site of the implants that was causing the discomfort.

We started to work on the issues of self loathing and then all of the sudden she felt Jewish to me. It was very funny because she was not Jewish in the present life and energetically she didn’t feel like Jewish energy. The scenario opened up of why she had to excel. Her past life in a Nazi death camp opened up to me. The woman had to slip out of their dresses and go be seen by a doctor to see if they were healthy enough to live. The sick ones were put to death. In that life, she actually had to prove herself worthy to survive. It was what drove her to excel in this lifetime and caused her to be super self critical.

She was the one who recognized that the past life in a death camp was why she was compelled to rescue dogs. She was, on some level, trying to save herself. When the dog was being seen by the vet, it triggered the trauma of her having to be scrutinized by the doctor as to whether she should live or die. The defensiveness she seen in the dogs, was a reflection of her own issues that were too unbearable to access.

As we released some of the issues, we both felt the energy around her upper side ribs relax. It also came to my attention that the surgeon himself has a certain responsibility not to put his issues into his patients. It is similar to how a cook needs to prepare food with love. She was carrying a bit of the surgeon’s issues in her breast area. We released that as well.

The dogs were such a gift. They were, in a way, helping her look at what was too unbearable to see. They difficulty they were giving her was actually a gift.

Here are the taps that we went through during her session.

(say each statement 3 times while tapping on your head and say it a 4th time while tapping on your chest)

“I release hating myself; in all moments”

“I release hating those who love me; in all moments”

“I release finding fault with those who love me; in all moments”

“I release treating myself as the enemy; in all moments”

“I release being my own enemy; in all moments”

“I release defiling myself; in all moments”

“I release attacking myself; in all moments”

“I release hiring someone to attack me; in all moments”

“I release rejecting my body, in all moments”

“I release hating my implants in all moments”

“I release storing self-loathing in my body; in all moments”

“I release rejecting a part of myself; in all moments”

“I release hating my own beauty; in all moments”

“I release criticizing myself; in all moments”

“I release using self-criticism to show superiority; in all lifetimes’

“I recant all vows and agreements between myself and self-loathing in all moments”

“I remove all curses I have put on myself; in all moments”

“I dissolve all karmic ties between myself and self-loathing; in all moments”

“I remove all the pain, burden, limitations and engrams that self-loathing has put on me; in all moments”

“I take back all the Joy, Love, Abundance, Freedom, Health, Success, Security, Companionship, Peace, Life, Wholeness, Beauty, Enthusiasm, and contentment that self-loathing has taken from me; in all moments”

“I transcend self-loathing; in all Moments”

“I shift my paradigm from self-loathing to unconditional self-love; in all moments”

“I am centered and empowered in Divine Self Love; in all moments”

Be Worthy

 

Being worthy is a choice at this point

(Say each statement 3 times out loud while CONTINUOUSLY tapping on the top of your head at the crown chakra and say it a fourth time while tapping on your chest.)

“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into contempt; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into disease; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into problems; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into gossip; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into apathy; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into depression; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into obnoxiousness; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into overcompensation; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into ego; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into indifference; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into noise; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into gaudiness; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into poverty; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into weakness; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into helplessness; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into hoarding; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into anger; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into lust; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into greed; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into attachment; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into vanity; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into sloth; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into self pity; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into martyrdom; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into servitude; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into arrogance; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into manipulation; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into indifference; in all moments”
“I release converting feelings of unworthiness into cruelty; in all moments”
“I shift my paradigm form feeling unworthy to he fullness of being loved and empowered; in all moments”
“I am centered in Love and empowerment; in all moments”
“I am satiated in love and empowerment; in all moments”
“I resonate and emanate love and empowerment; in all moments”

Releasing the “Nice” Syndrome

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A new client came to me for her first session. Nothing came through for me in regards to help her except one thing that was getting in the way. She was nice. It was coating all of her sound frequency to the point that it was irritating to hear her speak. Her energy was just nice.

When I asked her about it, she said that she hates it. It was such a part of her. It was so ingrained that I spoke directly to her energy and explained that it was not fooling me. I saw through the facade. I had her do a few ruthless taps to try and crack though and crumble the coating of nice that was keeping her stuck. She enjoyed them. I am not certain how I succeeded because usually with people, I can tell by their reactions that there is a shift made. But with her, she just gave me more “nice”.

I did get a glimpse of a recent past life where she was kept by 3 men and was repeatedly beaten, raped and made to serve them. She got pregnant and didn’t know which one was the father and ended up drowning the baby in a mental fog. The memories were so devastating that she was using the nice as a tool for survival. I also saw a quick glimpse of many lifetimes at war. She was using nice for denial. She would just deny everything by being nice. But it had become a prison.

You know how someone who is over nice is irritating? It is because those who can perceive in subtle energies can see the hypocrisy behind it; or the deception. Either the person is lying to others or themselves because they are denying themselves the various responses that being an exponential person allows.

Say each statement 3 times out loud while tapping on your head and say it a 4th time while tapping on your chest

“I release being galvanized in “nice” in all moments”
“I release being paralyzed in “nice” in all moments”
“I release using being nice as a form of denial; in all moments”
“I release the trauma that I am hiding by being nice; in all moments”
“I release wasting all my energy being nice; in all moments”
“I release manipulating others by being nice; in all moments”
“I release the belief that nice is the highest action; in all moments”
“I release being programmed to be nice; in all moments”
“I release all “nice” programming, conditioning and engrams; in all moments”
“I release being trapped in being nice; in all moments”
“I release defining nice as being holy; in all moments”
“I release using nice to be superior; in all moments”
“I release being enslaved to being nice; in all moments”
“I recant all vows and agreement between myself and being nice; in all moments”
“I remove all curses and blessings between myself and being nice; in all moments”
“I sever all strings and cords between myself and being nice; in all moments”
“I dissolve all karmic ties between myself and being nice; in all moments”
“I send all energy matrices into the light that ensconce me in being nice; in all moments”
“I remove all vivaxes between myself and being nice; in all moments”
“I remove all tentacles between myself and being nice; in all moments”
“I strip all illusion off of being nice; in all moments”
“I transcend being nice; in all moments”
“I transcend being nice; in all moments”
“I shift my paradigm from nice to authentic; in all moments”
“I remove all nice from my sound frequency; in all moments”
“I remove all nice from my light body; in all moments”
“I release resonating with being nice; in all moments”
“I release emanating with being nice; in all moments”
“I shatter the glass ceiling of being nice; in all moments”
“I am centered and empowered in divine love; in all moments”

We think of being nice as the highest good. But it can be a prison of its own. A lot of damage can be done to someone and to others by the compulsion to be nice. Anything that is done to excess is a deviation from personal freedom.

Gratitude For Keeping Me Alive

Ten years ago, I was laying on a cold basement floor resolved to die of starvation. I would wake up before sunrise and wait for the captor to give me the command to get dressed to prepare and work outside until after sunset. I would frantically dress and await for him to drill me about my dreams. He was looking for any information he needed on what the next step was in my demise.

Little did either he or I know, that my spirit guides were preparing me to have the strength to get myself out of there. They would show me the apartment that I would live in one short month later and showed me the new people who I would meet in my new life. Most everyone that I had known before the captivity would not accept me back into their world. Only a couple special gems would embrace me after disappearing for a year.

The captor could not possible know that every night, I was taken to this seminar-like atmosphere that was set up for many visitors. It was a recurring dream that I had every night. I would be in a hotel setting that was prepared to receive a lot of guests at this special event. Sometimes I sat in the seats like everyone else. But sometimes I was in a back hall with everyone waiting for me to appear.

In the first few months, there were only a few people who were sitting in the chairs. It comforted me that they were there. They seemed to make it easier to get through the waking days. A very few were people I knew were in the crowds. The rest I did not know who they were then but they were familiar to me. It comforted me to be with them. It was as if being with them in my dreams, kept me nurtured from an otherwise socially deprived existence.

Being with them kept me alive. At the ending of my captivity the group swelled to multitudes. Now I know who those people were. They were you. The people who kept me alive with their company are the people here who read my posts and support me in sharing my gifts. Since time and space are an illusion and all is happening at once, you are nurturing that starving, cold deprived version of me so I could get here to assist you in totally awakening.

The resort setting is the Hotel that I facilitated was my first retreat this May. I recognized the Hotel from my dreams when we went to check out the facility. The date was also chosen for me from a dream I had twelve years ago. It is at the same time as the international Lilac Festival in my home town of Rochester, New York. The Ancient ones who Guide me, have had an agenda for me all along. They were feeding me the details in my dreams.

The dreams during captivity were of my spirit guides showing me how many people I would help just by surviving and sharing my gifts. I needed all that encouragement to overcome the daily torture, brainwashing, starvation, harsh weather, sleep deprivation and sensory deprivation that I endured. Knowing on a subtle level, that I would know all of you and have your love and support, kept me alive.

Ten years ago, I will have made the journey to my freedom. I was half dead and terrified but alive and excited as well. All kind of fears and curses from the captor were met to get away from that experiences. It was surreal and unimaginable at the time. But it was done and the gifts that I now access, took a long time to be drawn out of a terrified brainwashed emaciated stupor.

The date of my escape is the only special day that I celebrate. I am mostly alone since my reemergence into society and live like a monk. I spend my days writing, doing healing work for individuals and the world and tending the needs of my furry family inside and out. This year, I am celebrating by opening up more and more to assisting others than I could not have possibly fathomed even knowing; except of course in my dreams. I came back to society thinking I was a retarded boy. As articulate as I write, that is the simple mentality that I operate from.

It is a very vulnerable way to live. It took me ten years to build up the courage to be physically present with others. It is no less than a miracle that I am reaching you all with these words. It took so much endurance and resilience merely to live in a sea of people where there was no love for me. How ironic that I teach others how to love beyond all outer limitations and in all situations. My insights have been developed and honed honestly through a personal quest to experience love.

As a way to reach more and more of the community that has kept me alive, more and more venues have been created to allow me to assist as many souls as I can in the world. Since I have returned, many people have experienced energetic shifts in themselves that have experienced great transformations. They have seen great shifts in the world as a result of my group sessions geared to benefitting all of humanity.  My goal is that everyone overcome whatever limitations that may hinder them in any way. May they access their gifts and talents as a way to pour their incredible love into the world

One of the side affects of surviving being starved and tortured nearly to death is the ease in which I am able to love. This love pours out into everything I write and you are all benefactors of that great resource now. My books are not merely worlds but a conduit and an equation to reach higher consciousness. Another way to connect deeper to those I love is the group sessions that I facilitate weekly. They are accessible to those who really want to realize their own omnipotence in the world.

These are a couple of the ways you have access to me and my love and gratitude and specially honed gifts. I am fearless in speaking truth and empowering others because I went through the process of enlightenment and know that I was kept alive to do exactly what I do. I am grateful to have such purpose and am completely immersed in sharing all my gifts so that you can uncover all of yours.

My next retreat is this September 8th and 9th. The one in May was a reunion of souls who have never met in this life before. The love and transformation were incredible. In this upcoming retreat, we will be blurring the line between animate and inanimate life. As this line is what keeps people enslaved to linear limitations. I will also be reintroducing the attendees to their childlike wonder through releasing their resistance to play. It will be dynamic energy work disguised in play.

I would love to see you at the retreat. You can register to attend here. http://www.jenuinehealing.com/

Be Your Best Cheerleader

 
 
(Say each statement 3 times out loud while tapping on the top of your head at the crown chakra and say it a fourth time while tapping on your chest at the heart chakra)
 
“I release sitting on the sideline of life; in all moments”
“I release cheering everyone else on more than myself; in all moments”
“I release taking the back seat to everyone’s happiness; in all moments”
“I release depleting my resources to help others; in all moments”
“I release the daily martyring of myself; in all moments”
“I release deferring to the empowerment of others; in all moments”
“I release being a bit player in my own life; in all moments”
“I release living unseen in the shadows of greatness; in all moments”
“I release living as if I am insignificant; in all moments”
“I release highlighting others at the cost of myself; in all moments”
“I release cringing at my own greatness; in all moments”
“I Embrace my own magnificence; in all moments”